Tuesday, October 20, 2009

We All Need Pick Me Ups

I love Ingrid Michaelson's lyrics. Album after album, her songs speak to me and have brought tears to my eyes many a time. She's been with me through fires, furies, friends, f*ckups, and flipouts. Her latest one, Everybody, has a collection of hopeful, honest and healing songs that remind us to have grace with ourselves and with others, because in the end, we're all fallen and searching individuals afraid of failure and being alone. Here are the lyrics for one of my new favorites that keeps me going when I've been blue.

A couple of others to check out are titled Sort Of, and Are We There Yet. (click links for song on YouTube)
Everybody by Ingrid Michaelson
We have fallen down again tonight,
In this world it's hard to get it right. 
Trying to make your heart fit like a glove, 
What you need is love, love, love.  
Everybody, everybody wants to love, 
Everybody, everybody wants to be loved. 
Oh oh oh, oh oh oh  
Happy is the heart that still feels pain, 
Darkness drains and light will come again. 
Swing open up your chest and let it in, 
Just let the love, love, love begin.  
Everybody knows the love 
Everybody holds the love, 
Everybody folds for love. 
Everybody feels the love, 
Everybody steals the love, 
Everybody heals with love.  
Oh oh oh 
Just let the love, love, love begin.


Friday, October 16, 2009

A Peek

I have since returned from my 6 weeks all over China, but with no time to blog about it just yet, here is a glimpse of my thoughts the first couple days after arriving in Xian to volunteer teaching English:

September 6, Sunday

 

Last night, I arrived in Xi’an after a long day of traveling. Leaving Singapore at 9.45am, I arrived at the Cross Cultural Solutions home base close to 11pm after a 5 hour stopover in the Hong Kong airport where I hung out at Starbucks reading the amazing book by Randy Pausch, The Last Lecture.

Today we had orientation, taking a brief tour of the city to see the Bell Tower, the Drum tower (both in the middle of the city), the Muslim Quarters and Art Street. We then came home, had a meeting to introduce ourselves, then went on a mini walking assignment to get to know the neighborhood. In my group, there’s Felipe Isamu Gonzalez Noguchi, a Spanish-Japanese guy who goes to NYU but lives in London, Richard and Vandana (married couple), and Dipika, who all live not far from London as well. There’s also Kaha from Korea who’s been here for 10 weeks already, and has 2 more to go. She attends Carnegie Mellon for Economics, but wants to pursue hospitality. She went to high school in California, and is very independent and easy to get along with. She’s my roomie, and I like her. :)

Our welcome dinner was at a fancy Chinese restaurant opposite from the Wild Goose Pagoda, where we had Peking duck and all kinds of other dishes. It was a feast! Also got to catch a bit of the water fountain show in that happens in front of the pagoda, apparently it’s the largest of its kind in Asia or some other region sort measurement.

After dinner, Kaha, Makayla (our program assistant), Felipe and I went to Trust-Mart, about 5 minutes from our apartments, for supplies. It’s kind of like the French department store CarreFour, or like Target in the States; and sells everything, but I was amazed at how the organization of products makes absolutely no sense. The shower gel was shelved with the toothpaste, but at the opposite end of the mart from the shampoos and body lotions. In between them, we found the bakery, clothing, ice cream, frozen meats, and some cleaning supplies. The Q-tips were with the skewers and tupperware. What?! I am mystified.

The air quality here is quite appalling, and my throat is already scratchy from the dust and smog in the air. My eyes and nose burn from the dust kicked up by the passing vehicles, and I cant help but wonder if I’m doing my body a major disservice spending more than a month in China! Breathing with my mouth open or talking for a couple of minutes gives me little gritty pieces in my teeth, and when I’m slick with sweat from walking in the heat, I can feel sandy grime on my chest when I wipe it off. Ew. Apart from that and the crazy cars that don’t stop for even a child crossing the road regardless of zebra crossings or green lights, the people are generally friendly and helpful when I ask for directions.  I have to say that even though I don’t understand it all, I respect the Chinese for their c’est la vie attitude, because they seem to be pretty content with the ways in which they run their affairs.

 

September 7, Monday

Today was the first day of our placement. I woke around 7:45am to get ready, had breakfast and talked to Danny for a bit on Skype (I am SO thankful for it! Seeing his face and hearing his voice keeps me sane and a little less anxious in a foreign environment) before going with Felipe to the office in the next building to meet the college students with whom we’d be touring the city with, correcting grammatically wrong signs in English, and naming landmarks for them to draw up in English. The maps they complete will be put in local hotels, and given to other volunteers to get around.

The college student I was partnered with is called Zhao Qing Yuan. He has us call him Zhao because it’s easier to remember. He just graduated from the local university in Bioengineering, and is applying for grad school to be a zoologist! We had a brief conversation about my dislike for animals in general, and his inclination towards cats- large felines like lions and tigers, in particular. As we walked past a school looking building, I asked him in Chinese what it was so I could name it in English for the map. He said, “this is a party school”, to which my eyes widened and implored, “party school?!” He laughed and clarified, “this is where people who want to learn more about communism and join the government party come for classes before being able to register with the party, not party like, party!!!”

More intrigued than before, I asked him what his personal take on communism is, a question that rendered him a little flustered, as he mumbled in English, “Oh, I don’t know, I’m not in any position to say… but in general I think I agree with it. It’s the government!” We had been warned by our CCS staff that talking about religion and politics is highly risqué in China, so I let it go, drawing that discussion to close with a dissatisfied “oh, okay”.

We spent about 2 hours walking the streets of our neighborhood, called Xiao Zhai, which also means “little village” before heading back to the home base for lunch. After lunch, I got to talk to Danny again, for a longer period of time so that we could have a proper conversation. It made my day, as usual (: After brainstorming with him for a theme for this Halloween’s haunted house at the Montecito Inn, I joined the group to learn how to play Mah Jong. It’s a pretty fun and chill social game for 4 that’s similar to rummy or Phase 10, and I managed to win 1 of the 4 rounds we played. Yay!

The rest of our evening was left free, so apart from dinner, I pottered about reading American fashion magazines from 2007 and 2008, and a Cathy Kelly novel I found on the communal bookshelf. I think I will go read more of the book before heading to bed… tomorrow will be a long day, correcting signs at the Bell Tower!

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Elected Neglect

I have been a blogger fail for numerous months now, and for that I am repentant... summer vacations always render me negligent, and the past few months in Singapore and Thailand have kept me busy... butI am back! Even if it's just for a while, but my next hiatus is for good reason. Let me explain!

I am leaving for Xi'an, China in 2 days, where I will be volunteering for 3 weeks in 2 capacities. For the first week, I will be traveling around the city of Xi'An, China's cultural center with a couple of college students from the Xi'an University, scoping out signs and public literature in English that need to be corrected. For prime and hilarious examples, visit Engrish.com. I also be helping the students with their spoken English, and mapping the neighborhoods out in English so they can draw them up for future use.

My second and third weeks will be spent with kindergartners at a school affiliated with the University. The school has 18 classes of 40 students each, 3 of which receive bilingual education. I'll be dividing my time each day among these classes teaching the children songs and games in English, and helping the teachers with their spoken English and lesson plans. I am so excited!

After that, Danny is joining me in Xi'an, where we will spend a little under a week visiting the terra-cotta warrior tombs and other historical sites within the main city walls, before flying to Beijing for the week, for the Great Wall, Peking Duck etc. After Beijing is Hong Kong for shopping and food!

I will be spending a total of 6 weeks in China+ Hong Kong, returning to Singapore in the middle of October for 2 weeks to pack and rest before flying out to LA and apartment hunting in Pasadena for me to start school at Le Cordon Bleu in the first week of November! 

Naturally, I will try to update this as much as I can, with pictures and posts, but since I understand that China has banned both blogs and Facebook, I think the updates will be few and far between. All that said, if any of you need to get me, email me and I will get back to you asap :)

For now, here are some photos from Danny's visit to Singapore and our holiday in Thailand. More up on Facebook!


Singapore




Thailand: Bangkok and Phi Phi Island







Sunday, June 21, 2009

I got Snucked!

I am presently very tickled by the word "snuck". Hence, I've coined "snucked", to mean: to be in the state where you have had something/someone sneak by you successfully.

In the past few months, I've been consistently snucked by time. I don't know that I'm too pleased, even though it's been such a ball... I leave Santa Barbara in 3 weeks for Singapore, and while I'm planning to return for Le Cordon Bleu Culinary school in Pasadena in November and spending a month in Xi'an, China teaching English and traveling with Danny, I am sad to be moving away from this town indefinitely. My last day of work at the Montecito Inn is in a week, and then I have 2 weeks to hang out with friends and pack my life up (once again). Packing always makes me sad, anxious, scared and unsettled and I doubt that it will be any different, much less better, this time.

For now though, I will give you an update on my life as of late, because I've been busy with lots of traveling and road trips, eventful social events and milestones in some of my relationships. Here are the highlights:

In late April Larissa and I took a drive up to San Francisco and stayed at the Parc 55 to surprise Crystal for her birthday weekend, and got to explore the new and trendy SoMa (South of Market) area and reacquaint ourselves with city nightlife. It was really good to see Crys and catch up with her!

My sweet mommie came up for 2 weeks for Cleo's graduation in May, and after grad weekend, Cleo, Anders, Danny, Mom and I took a trip up to San Francisco to play. We stayed at the Palace Hotel and took mom around Market Street, Union Square, Fisherman's Wharf, North Beach and Chinatown, and had a blast!

Jenelle and Trevor's wedding in Flagstaff Arizona on May 30th, in which I was a bridesmaid. Check out Jeff's eloquent and stunning visual coverage here: Waitman-Caines Wedding by J. Shipley Photography (Can you spot me in the pictures? Hee hee)

Mine and Danny's official " 1 monthiversary" this weekend (okay fine we've been dating for close to 6, i'm not trying to be cutesy but it makes me happy so deal with it!) that we spent in Solvang. We went wine tasting at gorgeous Sunstone Winery, ate yummy traditional Danish Aebleskivers at the Solvang Restaurant, took my new Nikon D700 (birthday present from my parents) on a photo adventure in wine country, and had dinner at Bradley Ogden's new restaurant Root 246. It was scrumptious and so much fun! I will post pictures soon!

Friday, June 05, 2009

True!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

I Learned Something New Today

At work this evening, I took a reservation call from the California Relay Service for a guest with a speech/hearing disability. Spending 20 minutes on the phone with the representative who was recording and typing our conversation and speaking the guest's reply to me while we cued each other at the end of our turns with "go ahead" was a slow but fascinating, because I had the chance to ponder what telecommunicating would be like on a daily basis for individuals who require this service. I also wondered how the individual on the phone with me playing middleman got his job, and what skills, experience and training is required to be of such service.

I was most struck by the guest's incessant expressions of gratitidue, she was thanking me every other sentence, "thank you very very much for your time, " or "thanks so much for your patience with me", "thank you for answering my questions so well, it sounds lovely", and I got the sense that she knows how long of a process such phone calls can be, and felt badly about it. Part of me didn't want the conversation to end because it was a new way of communicating- one with a sense of delayed gratification, and I wanted to ask the representative questions about the Relay Service!

I went of the website to find out how a relay call is made, and found this list of ways that people use the Relay Service:

A relay call can be made by TTY (Text Telephone, or Teletypewriter), Internet Relay Service, Video Relay Service, or Speech to Speech Relay Service. A relay call can include Voice Carryover ( VCO ) and Hearing Carryover ( HCO ) service.

(http://www.ddtp.org/california_relay_service/how_to_make_a_relay_call/#tty)

How cool is that! For all the communication theories and tools I've studied in school, I wish there were courses on alternative and specialized communication devices and services so that everyone (and especially people in the service and sales industries) could be more aware of how to serve and anticipate needs.

Monday, May 04, 2009

A First

Today, I had my first panic attack. I don't know what triggered it, nor how to make it go away, but after having a salad and hanging out at home before work, my heart started pounding, my body wouldn't stop shaking, I began running a temperature and starting breathing really fast and shallow. It was bizarre and alarming! So after a little more than a hour of freaking out alone I called Danny and he came over to calm me down while I got ready for work. :( After he fetched me to work and sat with me in the conference room for a few minutes for me to stop shaking, I felt a little better, but today has been a really weird day and my body feels like it got run over by a truck. Every hour or so at work my heart starts pounding again and my hands quiver a little, but I'm learning to concentrate on making my mind slow down so I can be productive.

Talk about a weird day!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Monday Blues

Tonight, I was having a weird night. I haven't felt like myself all day, and have been quieter and not wanting to engage... I have a lot going on in my head. So Danny was a sweetheart and brought me dinner at work and we got to talk for a tiny bit, and he made the observation that all the times that I'm at work and feelin blue, those days happened to be Mondays. Weird!

I also just rediscovered the joy that is Heath bars. I think I'll have to stock up and keep one in my purse for every start-of-the-week emergency. Pooie.

Tomorrow will be a better day! I'm gonna work on it.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Starbucks: The Way I See It #79

The irony of commitment is that it’s deeply liberating—in work, in play, in love. The act frees you from the tyranny of your internal critic, from the fear that likes to dress itself up and parade around as rational hesitation. To commit is to remove your head as the barrier to your life.
Anne Morris


I'm working on embracing the liberation that this quote is talking about. In work, in play and in love, I've come to perceive boundaries, contracts and applications as a closing of doors, limiting my options and making a choice I might regret. The last couple of months has been eye-opening as I've been exploring what I'm going to do with my summer. Applying to grad schools is so scary because I feel like I'm committing to an institution and it's location for a matter of years, putting labels on relationships feels like unnecessarily public announcements, and making plans on my few days off means I am not free to go with the flow and make spontaneous decisions.

What is this fear of commitment that I have never experienced before? I'm starting to wonder if I've gotten too excited about the open window of mobility and freedom in my life and resulted in being flaky or flighty, or if I have allowed myself to get paralyzed with fear of the grown-up and unknown.

Yesterday, I turned 22 and celebrated with some of the most special people in my life. Every year, I find myself wishing more and more that my family could be around (I've spent it w/o them for the past 5 years), but with that, I also know that there are friends that nothing could ever replace in my life. Friday was a splendid and relaxing day spent in West Hollywood and Beverly Hills with Danny, walking around and shopping. We had lunch at the amazing Urth Caffe, then at Wolfgang Puck's new restaurant Cut at the Beverly Wilshire. The steaks were amazing! We had the best time in conversation, and the day could not have been better (:

Then on Saturday, the morning of my birthday, we made Belgian waffles before I met Lala and Robyn to spend the day downtown shopping and hanging out. They took me to Crushcakes for cupcakes I'd been craving for weeks, and took a walk to Alice Keck park to chill by the turtle pond. It felt good to be with the best roomates in the world! After that we had a scrumptious dinner at Arigato with Danny, Jeff, Courtney and Jess before heading to Danny's for the birthday party for Nick and I. I'm not going to ramble and list names, but the night/early morning was an absolute blast and I felt so special and loved by all our friends to came to party with us! I'm so incredibly blessed!

This weekend has become an agglomeration of all the things I love most about living here in Santa Barbara- the people, the weather, the great restaurants, entertainment and cities in the area... and while it rattles me to think that I will be leaving all this for an undetermined amount of time in a few months, I am so thankful that I got to experience all this at all. It's a great reminder that all these things came about from my willingness to commit to moving out of Singapore, leaving friends and family, and to Westmont for 4 years.

I guess commitment cant be all that bad, huh?

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Cool Finds

Today I am grumpy but it's okay cos Molly's here at work with me and she's grumpy too. Misery loves company. I cannot wait for this weekend.

Look at these cool sites I found!

Frolick, a new Froyo place in Singapore was featured in this article in Design Tavern about the Froyo fad overtaking the food industry.

I want this cloud sofa! How ingenious is this! It'll be like a fluffy and warm hug, perfect for napping in. Mmm.
Swimming Pool by Leandro Erlich gives the illusion that people are hanging out in a pool.

Also, this video makes me want a puppy! If i got one this cute I would totally take care of it and not shun it like other animals. I promise.